Becoming a parent opens you up to so many emotions. First you are pregnant, feeling horrible and watching your body transform into something you never could imagine. Then you have this beautiful baby, and the worrying really begins. I began to worry about SIDS, checking to make sure they were breathing all the time. I then began to worry about them getting hurt and/or sick. It seemed that every stage came with a new worry. How are you supposed to enjoy being a parent when so much can go wrong?
After the initial worries subside, I started to think about my kids futures. There are so many things I want for them. So many opportunities that I want them to experience, and so many places I want them to see. The other day Larry and I were talking, and I said to him "Do you know that we have half raised Kade?" "He will be 9 this year, our time with him is half over." I wanted to cry. How could it be that in 9 years my oldest son will out on his own? Where did the time go? I quickly realized that there are so many things I have left to teach him...Now, I know he is not leaving tomorrow, but one day I am going to wake up and he will be...So I began to think of things that I wish for them. Things I hope they have in life. Things that will make them happy.
My Wish List for My Children:
I wish for them to find a significant other who will love them and treat them right.
I wish for them to always be happy
I wish for them to love themselves for who they are
I wish for them to have a job they love and that makes them happy
I wish for them to be love their life
I wish for them to know that money is not everything and it does not buy happiness
I wish they have a wonderful school career
I pray they will always be safe
I wish for them to make good choices
I hope they know it is okay for them to make mistakes
I hope they know it is okay to not be perfect
I wish for them to always have a soft place to fall
I wish for them to always remain close with their siblings
I wish for them not to have to deal with heartache
I wish for them to be strong individuals
I wish for them to not judge others
I wish for them to stand by their choices and convictions
I wish for them to never be afraid
I wish for them to know the love of a pet
I wish for them to know the value of being a good friend
I wish for them to have good friends
I wish for them to stand up for what they believe
I wish for them to be strong in dealing with peer pressure
I wish for them to never feel alone in this world
I wish for them to see the beauty in the sunrise and sunset
I wish for them to never give up on a dream
I wish for them to always be kind individuals
I wish for them to respect the differences in others
I wish for them not to hate
I wish for them to set goals and obtain them
I wish for them to travel and see this magnificent world
I wish for the to know that everything we did was out of love
I wish for them to know they can come to talk to me about anything
I wish for them to know how much I will always love them
Mainly, I wish for them to know the love of their own child.
The love they have given me, is far greater than anything I can explain. They bring me so much happiness, joy and they fa-fill my dark days with love. They give me things that no one else can. Mostly, they are my purpose for living. I treasure each kiss, hug and "I love you" because I know that one day, in the not so distant future, those kisses and hugs will be gone....
Much Love,
Shelby
